My dad is just kind of a mute about the whole thing. He follows my moms lead. But then again, I try not to stress him out too much because he is on dialysis and I don't want to contribute to him getting worse. My sister and I have a great relationship. The sad thing is, my mom and I used to be best friends. Now it feels like I have to be near death for her to even lift up her head and go "okay, lets get you help".

This is whole new territory for me. I have been mentally ill most of my life, but I've never been so physically ill before and I am learning how that works myself. And I know a lot of people, some old friends, tell me that maybe this is her way of wanting me to find independence. The problem with that is I have been independent my whole life. From when I was 10 on, I did everything myself. If I felt ill, I took care of it. I started handling the bills when I was 14. I started working a full time job when I was 16. I always want to do everything alone. So me saying "I can't do this alone" is a huge step, even though it may seem like a step backwards.