I like your user name and how you are trying real hard to help yourself. I suggest you try www.therapistratings.com it is a nice site for trying to find doctors as well as in your phonebook. Please feel free to vent and post and reply here whenever you want! If you find no help from PC there are many other sites feel free to email me if you want to know more. I really hope you get what you need and want. Good luck and God bless!