feeling empty for the last couple of days. i want to be alone but don't want to be alone at the same time. i actually deleted all my contacts on my phone but wants to talk to somebody. tried to do some yard work yesterday for 3 hours and watch sherlock all night but it didn't help. there's nothing left for me to go on. the cat keeps me company all day, at least she knows when i don't feel good. it seems that everyone have something to live for except me. no family, no friends, no work, no money... just the cat and me (and she's not even mine).