I am now in AA, but this is what I went through. I would wake up and start drinking until I went to bed. Drinking about 2 5ths a day. Or wake up go to work hung over and thinking that whole day about my drink and when I went home I drank from then until I went to bed. It got bad in Vegas---oooh out every night, emotionally and putting my family in harms way. I didn't care. All I cared about was that bottle! People would ask what I liked to do and I had to make up stuff and I didn't know because you couldn't come out and say you loved to drink! What a horrible time it was as I see it now so why do I pick up anything such as a mike's or a shot? It ruined my life and I don't want to go thru it and put my family thru it again. So I am back in AA and have prayers out for me. That's how u know you are an alcoholic---some of the things. But I wouldn't worry since your last drink was a year ago-----way to go and I cant wait to be able to say that. But still confused on why I would still want to pick up that shot 2 weeks ago and mike's it ruined my life????