Thank you for all the posts guys. I think I am probably going to hold off the meeting, I just can't meet him if I am like this I am not perfect yet. Plus I don't want him to meet me either like this. I couldn't handle it. Hell, I wouldn't be mad that he would stop talking to me either.I'd be utterly devastated but wouldn't be mad.

he's fat too but looks cute that way, i just cannot let him see me as a fat person i just hope he understands.