You communicate perfectly well. My parents forced me the same way. They said, only the BEST succeed in the arts. They didn't know that I was among the best, I graduated at the top 1percent of my large high school. My mother later said that if something was important to me, I would have found a way to do it, in spite of her. So I would give you the same advice now. Do what is important to you. Find where your real talents and inspiration are.