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Originally Posted by Sylveon
I would like to meet up but I am mostly scared that their won't be anything there and he'd just end up leaving and I'll be all alone again. Not to mention that I am not in the best of shape financially, physically, or mentally.
I still need a passport and lose enough weight to even feel comfortable enough to actually meet him. I don't want to be a disappointment. I just don't want to lose him even if their is nothing there.
Bahh..this is all so new to me and I really don't like to feel like this.
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Aww!!!
Where there is a will, there is a way! Have you, also developed feelings?
What are you doing to reach that goal, of eventually meeting him, when you feel ready to? It takes time to get a passport, well, not eternity, but a couple of hundred, dollars wise. And the time it takes to save that up, you can start slow and work on your physical self. And, is he, at all aware of anything about mental health? Does he know what you cope with, on a daily basis?
OK, sometimes, fear holds us back. Have you talked about any of these things, with him? Causally mentioned, perhaps, not being happy with your figure, at the moment, or slipped into a conversation desire to lose weight? And if so, what was his reaction?
Sometimes, what's inside, still shines outside. I feel, it's great to read the realism in this post. Real, because you've acknowledged fear of the fantasy effect of meeting online, and fear of the fantasy effect of actually meeting in person.
You haven't been dishonest with him, have you?!