Got thyroid results back. I was hoping this was what has been causing this roller coaster year I have been having. But the test came back enlarged but functioning fine. So everything is just in my messed up head. I don't know how much more I can take. There are no external factors that would cause a normal person to be depressed in my life. I have a good family and job, on track to even retire early. That is what makes all this even the more frustrating.