Lizard lady, just wanted to let know how sorry I am you are under so much stress. I can really empathize with about anniversaries of our loved ones. Furry ones included. I lost my mom 4 years ago this month and my dad 2 years ago next month. I miss them so much. I lost more beloved fur babies than I can count anymore, so my heart goes out to you.

Going through all the grief and plus the change at work, I'm not surprised you are suffering from stress and reacting the way you are. I hope getting it out helps a little, but I hope you can find sometime to rest your body and take of yourself. I hope you feel better soon.