Do you have religious beliefs? I mean you do believe in heaven and I'm just wondering if you subscribe to any religion.

I also don't really feel like being anything in particular in this world and I think that's okay. But life is a gift from God and I'm good with living like this, without any particular dream for what I want to be in the future or anything like that.

It does seem like you're unsure of what you want like you said. But there must be something you enjoy, whether it's a career goal or not. If you have a hobby or maybe or a person that you really love, or a pet, maybe you really enjoy helping people, anything. Those kinds of things can also become "Dreams" of sorts. Your life doesn't have to be defined by what you do for a living.

For example, I work in an office as an estimator, I didn't study this in school nor do I really find it particularly fulfilling, but it's a good job even if it's boring for me. But my real life fulfillment comes from other things. I love to write music and I spend a lot of my time when I'm not working doing that. It's purely a hobby, I don't make any money from it, but still it really is a dream come true that I get to do that on a regular basis. See what I mean?

I hope you find some clarity or, if not, I hope that at least you can find peace about this whole thing.

- A