My first reaction to being upset or mad wasn't to repeatedly punch myself in the head. I did it the other day and now I've got this huge bruise and bump on my head. I say I walked into a door or something..I make it up as I go along. It's not even a conscious thing I do, I don't say to myself "Ok, you're upset let's self harm".
My immediate reaction is "you're bad" and I punch myself before I even realize what I'm doing.
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Allie
Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder.
I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress.
I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
