The more I read on about who does what, how some react to different emotions and how emotions and love have guidelines which proves them right. Is this the truth or all the truths are nothing more than someone else's ideas and ways. Why can't I be the one who is normal and the ones who don't think and act or lack things as were listed be the truth, the ones to be like, the normal ones. Maybe the ways of others in being more about somebody else then themselves or the unselfish ways that we are never compared to are the ones with real problems. I feel things, I may not see as well as the next one but does this mean I have issues. I did not wake up one day and decide to be this way, I know no one here who shares this asked for this. Life being what it is for us and therapy, medicine, psychiatrists and all else that come along really doesn't change who I am. Like I've said so many times in the past it was so much easier when I thought of myself as normal. This is what gets me now because somebody else came up with a theory that we do not fit under that category, we'll again that is someone's opinion that the public decided to believe. The only guarantee in our lives that is truly the truth is that we will all die one day and that's it. Everything else is possible and all else is from someone else's mind. I find that people with too much emotions and feelings are the ones with the real problems. It seems that these kind of ways make people weaker, more open to failure and definitely more open to being hurt to the extent that all around will be well aware. I choose my path, I make sure the outcome usually works in my favor. The game of life and how we deal with it, the ones that follow, the ones that lead, the ones that are never understood, the ones that don't come out and the list goes on and on. I see patterns which makes me understand that some of us are alike, that things do happen to create people of the same without ever meeting one another. My mind is like a game of tug of war with the constant back and forth, one feeling one moment then complete opposite the next. To even think that death is easier at times and to imagine those moments is maybe part of my normal self or my insanity. Some of us can't be understood by the masses, our ways of opening doors we only want people to see and not necessarily what's needed. To react to what's in front and set up a situation based on the moment and not the right. I learn to hate more, to become more angry, to not handle myself in way that were supposed to as we get older. I am intense with what I want and all around me know this. I am extremely selfish and worry mostly about what I need. So tell me a book says or a doctor who read many books tells me something's wrong based on a mind they cannot see, and forget being able to understand. It's not like a broken bone that is visual, you can't see my thoughts, understand my process of determining for myself. So really in many ways life is about somebody else saying something one day and it stuck for others to follow. I am who I am and maybe I can be more understanding one day but at this point what is the difference as I have been accepted and I've done ok with my ways for nearly 40 years already!!!