So the issue had been solved. I can sleep better at night. I think I made the right decision for me that I'll be able to stick with for at least a year. I'm titrating up on lactimal starting tonight. The new pdoc, whom I'm switching to because she cares and answers all of my questions, thinks I'm bipolar 1 because I've had a manic episode and thinks that the antidepressants I've been on were causing a ton of issues (I went hypo when I first got on zoloft and have cycled pretty badly since then).