Feeling hopeless about my life. Feeling stuck and ashamed. My self esteem is in the toilet. I avoid talking to people because I am ashamed of my life. I don't want to answer any questions about why things are the way they are. I feel like my family is embarrassed by me and disgusted with me. I have ruined my life and now I don't know how to fix things. I feel stuck. I thought I was going to have a family of my own with my BF and thought wrong. BF never stays home. Doesn't think he has to. Only feels he should have to be home if we had children which we don't. Spends all his free time doing things for and with his family and friends. Leaves me alone all the time. I have no friends and no family where I live. My friends and family have grown tired of me and my depressed, negative state. I have no car, I am unemployed, we are only a paycheck away from being homeless. I am afraid to work. Dependent on BF. Again, hopeless. I don't know what else to say. Medication can't change this. Don't know what to do. Want to just give up.