Oh I know that feeling. Afraid to work and then feeling resentful at my own dependence...although I do work, abeit p/t ...but always feel maybe I should do more..bring in more money...only yesterday a financial medical situation has arisen and its going to add some more to our already stretched family budget...my H works all the hours he can...I was/am getting so stressed over all off this...racing thoughts..panic, anxiety...I know its guilt...I am going to have to step up to the plate and work a little be extra...maybe only as little as a couple of hours a week..why this is causing me so much fear I'm unsure...but I know I will have to walk through the fear and DO IT...as NIKE say JUST DO IT.....at times life is just putting 1 foot in front of the other...I wish I could offer you a magical solution..infact I wish I could offer myself one...but sometimes life is hard...and we have to face it....