An ex gf once told me that I know nothing of love. Maybe she's right, I mean I think I love her, well it sure feels like I do yet she tells me I don't. She has BPD so I guess that confuses her emotions. I mean we all think we love someone and we believe it to be love, yet nothing is worse than confessing love for a person and for them to reject your feelings. It feels like someone has gripped your heart and hung it out to dry. It is very sad.
I mean is love the feeling of getting ill when she texts you because you know she is contacting you? I don't know, all I know is I lack the contact of females and I don't want the contact of someone who does not love me as I love them. How can I enjoy female contact if it is false and it is just to kill them of boredom for a few hours. Meh.