I lost my son about 5 1/2 years ago. I have always had depression, but it has never been this bad. I think about suicide a lot and I cut my arms. I haven't cut in a long time, I know it's addictive and had to stop. Now I tell someone when I feel like doing it. No one knows the thoughts that go through my head, they would lock me up for sure if they did. Has anyone here lost an adult child? My son was 35 and I can't imagine living the rest of my life without him. Most of the time I just wish I would never wake up in the morning.