I should be thrilled and I should be dancing around! I finally got an appointment with the doctor that I've been waiting for since April of this year. I think I was happy for about 20 minutes. And I started to think....And I started to get anxious.
Am I looking for a miracle in this dr? I'm kidding myself if I am! Part of me is though, can't lie! Why can't I be happy about it? Bec this has happened before along time ago & that pd was horrid. Am I putting all my eggs in one basket thinking this dr will have all the answers? I just don't wanto go in there & get my hopes crushed. In reality there can only be a med change in the future. I've been on all kinds of meds & med combinations for 23 yrs. I refuse to do any more ECT. What else is there? I can't afford TMS. What else is there for drug resistant patients & why do I think this dr knows. Bec their recommended? Hard to get into see? Do I have stars in my eyes & I'm not seeing this for what it really is? A chase scene.
I don't wanto hurt anymore or be hurt anymore, but I wanto be helped so badly! Not a great attitude to have to see a new Pdoc I guess.

Anyone in my boat? Older? Been around the block many times w/ depression & still....hoping?