It's so difficult trying to find someone who understands mental-health issues, let alone someone like that who'll accept those in someone whom they'd like, romantically.

I imagine one of the big reasons I'm single, is because of how I am.

My last ex was incredibly unstable, and I almost lost her, several times, so if I'm honest, I'm very, very, very hesitant about getting involved with someone who is in that way; I just cannot go through that, again.

Since I'm someone with stuff like OCD, anxiety issues, and depression, these are things with which I would relate, because I've had them for the majority of my life; I've also got a past of self-harm and suicidal thoughts/actions, so I could certainly understand those. I'm pretty understanding, but nowadays, ... let's just say that I've had a lot of time to put up a lot of barriers.

I wouldn't say I was desperate, but perhaps lonely, at times. The idea of a relationship scares the pants off me. (giggety) I've not been in a relationship since the aforementioned ex, which is now a couple of years or so, and I don't know if I even want to change that, anytime soon. I'm trying to work on other areas in my life, like getting a place of my own, working on my MH problems, and just trying to mend, I guess.

If I happened to find someone, I don't know, ... maybe I would feel/think differently and be more welcoming; it all comes down to how understanding, accepting, patient, and supportive they are, and whether I can get the balls to make myself vulnerable, again.

A while back, I went on a dating site or two - I guess I thought I was ready, and kid myself into thinking I could get back into the fray; how wrong I was. People on those sites don't want someone like us; they're too closed-minded, and I don't even want someone like that, ... hell no. I gave up, eventually, ... there was a couple of promising looking women, but I felt too insecure to "approach" them, either that or parts of their "profile" wouldn't have matched my problems, ... me being with someone who wants to travel the world, go out to clubs every night, and stuff like that, is just a crazy thought for someone with my problems.

So, thought I'd just share that, from someone in perhaps a similar boat.

They say "You'll find love when you stop looking". ¬_¬ Yeah, we'll see. *skeptical*