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Old Sep 27, 2013, 05:01 PM
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Location: Northern Europe
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I grew up with other issues that I should just be able to do. "You don't try hard enough", "You can do it if you WANT to"... I heard it 100s of times literally.

I would want to go back in time and say this; "I tried, I did what I could and it came out wrong anyway. I am fully aware it did not turn out how it was meant to. Every time you point out my shortcomings, you are taking away from my soul. Why do you never tell me when I do something good? I grew up thinking I was lazy and hopeless and that I could overcome my issues by working and wanting. I didn't understand myself so I called myself names, as I had been told to do. You never offered me any help with my issues, all you could offer was negativity.

I am good with some stuff, really bad at others. I wish I could have had encouragement for the good stuff, but I had to learn how to pat myself on the back. As for the bad... I'm still bad at it. Decades went by, your nagging didn't help me get better, it just added a sense of not being a real human because I cannot do "simple" things. Thanx mom, thanx dad. Ever wonder why I almost never visit?"
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