Well its obvious your current meds are just not going to work, stable is one thing but if you can't go about life due to side effects to whatever medication is it ,., then its not keeping you stable its snowing you under.

If your current Pdoc is unwilling to understand that your quality of life is being beat to hell , then find a new pdoc ...

It's okay to be pissed .. yes it really is okay ... Your only hopeless if you don't look for a better way to help YOU feel better.