So everyone says that your depression get worse before they get better. I still haven't found the "better" part yet. I honestly feel like I was better off before I started going to therapy and taking meds. Yeah I had my moments where I curled up in a ball because the pain was too much... I don't remember how frequent that happened though. I didn't (and still don't) like to go out and talk with friends or anything. I had (again still have) no motivation to do anything. I remember my dad asked me one time to clean up my room and broke down crying telling him not to remind me of that. But that was before I started therapy etc. Maybe I was ignoring the "issues" that I had before. Now it's all staring at me and saying do something about it but I don't have the energy. I was doing better this morning (besides being completley out of my mind thinking I had to be at work @ 10 but didn't get in until 11). But at this moment I just want to go home and go to bed. I feel so bad right now. I'm lost. I want to curl up and make the pain go away. I just started a higher dose of lamictal and I felt fine before but why do I feel so bad now.