I've been thinking about getting a new doctor (medication manager is what my insurance calls him). I see him twice a year. He asks me how much sleep I'm getting and to rate my happiness on a scale of one to ten. Once a year he wants liver function blood work. The whole visit lasts about 15 minutes. He diagnosed me in one visit using the DSM-IV interview two and a half years ago.

I keep asking myself if this is going to be my life. I had a stent put in my heart back in May, so now I get to add two more pills to my collection.

I have a little over a million dollars in life insurance. Sometimes I think...