Thanks um there is no meeting here i tried to go to one but they discontinued it in my town and moved it 45 mins away ....and if i were to put my self in treatment i would get a pv hit from probation and i dont want to go to jail....and lije i send letters fk my best friend who is in rehab and i knew i had co dependency issues but i didnt realize i was as bad as i am to a clise friend of mine he is actually a trigger for me ....but i cant just drop him as a friend cuz he is paying for my fines right now snd helping me get out of the homless shelter im in .....gah why does thus have to bbe so hard