I use to have intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself, cutting parts of my body, doing harm to family members. Sharp things would send me off and cause the triggers. I couldn't be around knives for a while. It's scary when you're not in control of what your mind thinks. Just remember that it will pass, the'll be better days, and you don't want to drive into that light.

It reminds me from a scene from the movie "Annie Hall" where Woody Allen meets Annie's brother who is played by Christopher Walken (one of my favorite actors) and he says something to Woody like "Do you ever just drive and look over at the lights in oncoming traffic and wonder what it would feel like to just swerve over and feel the impact."

Later on that night he has to drive them to the air port in the rain. Funny scene. Try youtube-ing it. Comedy always help, look for something you enjoy and can brighten your spirits. Stay away from substances and don't take pills. I say, have a grand day.