You are definitely not the only one. I hate who I am and am also very tired of being me. I haven't been hugged since I was hospitalized, which has been months. I'm turning 24 on November 6th and I never had a girlfriend, never been kissed, never had any friends (yes, I've had 0 friends in my entire life). It is quite the miserable life. I totally get where you're coming from, I feel the same way. People are always saying "Oh, but you're such a nice guy" well apparently being nice is not good for one's health because I sure as hell am suffering.