Hi, I quit drinking almost three years ago and have managed to hold on to my job. I know if I would have continued I wouldn't have had a job either. Or probably much of anything else including my health. I just got sick of it and was ready to quit, but I know how it feels to want to drink. I do other things now instead of drinking, coming here to this forum is one of them. I enjoy shopping and others things and do these things to reward myself. I know how hard it is to work when you are full of anxiety. I hope things get better for you. I see a doctor and the right medications made a big difference in how I feel and cope with things now. I'm Bipolar. Just hanging in there. But not by a thread that's for sure, I don't miss the misery that came with the drinking, it took me a long time to get over it.

ps you can have a better life