Hi, I'm new to this forum, and I'm writing because I am severely depressed. My depression has taken a turn for the worse and I feel like I can't go on anymore. It's any overwhelming feeling. I feel like all of my pain and struggles will go away if I'm not here anymore. I've waited and waited for things to get better, but nothing has. It's getting worse...my life and my mental state. I cannot see how continuing on in the best decision. Things really are as bad as I perceive them to be. If anyone knew the whole story, (or my whole story) I know for a fact that they would agree. I think that anyone who knew my history would wonder why I am still alive. It is that bad. And I know that other people have it just as bad as I do, and many might know how to cope better. But, me, I do not know how to deal with the severity of what's going on with me. I do not have the resources needed to seek medical attention for anti-depressants, or a therapist. Besides I feel like a therapist will reject me just like everyone else I know. I do not have not one person who cares about me, or anyone I could talk to. So, I'm left to draw on my own conclusions, which has led me to believe that I don't belong here. Things are getting to be too much for me, and I can't see any other way out. I don't know if I am wrong for feeling this way or not. I just want my pain to end. I don't want to live anymore...not like this. But, my situation is not temporary, it's permanent.

Thanks for reading