A depressive like me ,loses half the life to the illness because your life has it is stops dead in depression and only restarts in remission, so although in 65 I act 35 or even less . I remember nothing of those times in depression but my wife fills me in and sometimes its was pretty hairy and frightening to my family and I wouldn't have liked to be round me in them times. IM pretty sure there will be more to come but hey whatever its weird my hair has no grey, and my cloths are jeans, brown beat up biker jacket, black tee shirts , and canvas sneakers, like Bruce Springsteen 30 year ago. I like all music a still go to see bands at smaller venues .Im like a missing link in a chain , anyone the same does your life stop in the bad depressions and restart in remission.