I'm glad you and your husband are talking, but it still seems that BOTH of you are in very bad shape, apparently so bad that your son IS being affected by what he is being exposed to. It still sounds a bit like you are both minimizing how serious your symptoms are and thinking you are not so bad off and can handle this on your own, but the reality is that you both have sounded a bit "out of control" of yourselves lately. It still seems as if BOTH of you really need to be inpatient so you can be stabilized and be able to return home where neither of you is suicidal or explosive. It really doesn't seem like either of you are truly stable enough right now to be trying to fix yourself. Miguel needs his parents in as stable a state as possible. He may not be physically affected, but it sounds like he is being emotionally affected by what he is being exposed to. Kids have a sense for things when they aren't right and they aren't feeling safe. What needs to happen to make your entire family truly safe and healthy again?