momofanangel, I am the mom of 2 angels. My youngest son was killed in a hospital overdose on 11/1/10. Jordan was 24. And this past February 5, my oldest son, Graham (32), committed suicide. I do know your pain. I have never been a cutter, but I think I have just a glimmer of understanding because Graham was a cutter and also my dear friend IRL is a cutter and struggles with this. I've had problems with depression for years. I don't know YOUR thoughts but I suspect we share many. It's a life of pain. I hope that somehow we can both find some relief.