If you had said something like you were biting your father face, I would assume you did not like what he was saying/or communication problems. You can't believe a drunk, they will let you down, every time.

The fact was eating a femur, I would assume you feel like your father is walking away from you/ still would indicate communication problems with your father being stable.
Are you angry with him because of something in the past?

Are you secretly manipulating the circumstances when your father is drunk to get what you superficially want? - Fist pleasure from getting what you want.-Then guilt from being caught for murder, because you aren't being truthful with your emotions. Without being truthful this relationships potential for proper healing is dead-
It is your fathers responsibility for his behavior/ and how he treated you, not yours.
But when we get older it is our responsibility on how we behave and how we allow others to treat us.

Kissing someone, an old acquaintance goodbye- may mean you no longer wish to continue this dance between your father and self and want to sit down and look into the real issues of the situation. If this is not possible at this time, then maybe walking away from the situation is best, for yourself.

You should concentrate on making yourself whole again. Therapy can help.
I don't think your father can give you what you need right now, try to find some peace with that statement.
Surround yourself with positive people who understand, there are groups here for that.
Hugs,
Happiedasiy