I don't feel you sound paranoid. You do sound exhausted. Trying to keep everyone around you happy/pleased. You mention fearing heading towards another nervous breakdown, and yet, your husband, says no way to counseling, you need your thyroid meds changed?!

There is a trade off for more hours worked and how things run in the home. Was just having this conversation with someone this week, about second job employment and how it's affecting her own family. Between cleaning, and bedtime routines, etc.

And the fact that she's living at Waffle House and barely paying rent! That's a major problem, imo!