Hang in there, Veesnothing. That's what this community is for: to help you and give you someone to talk to about what you're dealing with. I'm new here too, but everything I've seen so far has been helpful.
We're here to talk to, so talk to us and we'll try to help you. I can't promise that any of us know how to make pain go away, but we can help each other along the way trying to get to that point.