I'm not sure where to post this. . . anxiety is my most active diagnosis right now, so I chose here.

There is a lot going on in my life right now, most of it good. The problem is that I feel completely overwhelmed by all of it that I'm paralyzed because I'm afraid of screwing up. (I have a teeny problem with perfectionism).

I bought my first house a few months ago. Moved in with a guy for the first time at the same time. (We bought the house together) Became a step-mom part-time (I don't have kids of my own, so instant 10 year old is a bit of a shock) I've developed some weird joint pain that's freaking me out and have to go for an arthritis assessment (I'm only 36) My mom is on her 3rd bout with breast cancer and it's fallout. I can't have intercourse due to dysparunia which requires very invasive physiotherapy. My debt is going up instead of down which is a first for me. I feel like my finances are out of control and my bf and I will end up on "Til Debt do us Part" getting called out by Gail Vaz Oxlade. I'm stressing out about money and my bf keeps spending more. (We have differing ideas of want and need. So I feel like the bad guy all the time. They're looking to cut hours at my job. . .again. My beautiful new house is a disaster because I can't find a place to put stuff I just move it around. There's usually one somewhat clean room at any given time so it feels futile because the whole thing is never clean.

I'm at the point that I'm so overwhelmed, I don't know what to do first so I sit on my butt and watch bad TV feeling guilty and getting down on myself.

Thanks for letting me vent, I had to get some of that out of my head.