This is a bad day. The pain is back. It's been gone for a couple weeks I almost forgot what it felt like. But it's worse then ever and I don't know what to do. I almost want to scream at the top of my lungs until my voice gives. But even that won't help. Nothing will help. I don't know how to make it through the rest of this day at work. I can't pretend to be nice to these people when I feel so completely miserable. It hurts too much...