I do not usually cut that often and typically if I do its when I am pushed to a far far point with things and I just can't deal.

and I am sad to say that yes I did just sort of self injure. I guess I say sort of cause I did not really do anything that made myself bleed. but I still cut on myself with a safety pin a couple dozen times just now.

I am feeling a lot of pressure from lots of different things, my own personal health mentally and physically.

my social life which feels constantly like its on damned titer toter half the time.

and trying to grow close to my once abusive father, that now has cancer.

I have been bottling up a lot of emotions inside and sometimes I just can't do it all. I feel poorly that I go to self injury but its something that will not just automatically change over night I do this as a coping skill for years. I just was not always aware that, that was in fact what i was doing.

confused and hurt would be good ways to sum up on how I feel.