I was diagnosed with BPD a few year back, aparently i do not fully fit the criteria for BPD any longer (and i agree with that too).

I have seen a pdoc in the past yes, however i've been stable for a couple of years and havent had any mental health concerns since 2011. So i think my GP is just dismissing me on that basis. He basically said to me 'your not bipolar' after about 30 SECONDS of seeing me, even though I stated to him countless times that past councellors (and my previous ones) have been pushing the assessment on me since I first went in to therapy at 16 (I dismissed the BP off with the 'but i'm not happy?' lol, as I do get elated moods but my suspected mania quickly escalates to the dysphoric, out of control bad mania - I didnt realised these moods were classed as mania until recently).

I know that I am not well, due to the stable couple of years I feel like I now have a bassline to compare both my depressive moods and my higher moods to - and I dont need a patronising ******hole GP right now telling me im fine. I know this is not just depression and I am starting to finally predict a pattern over the years here.

My 6th week of citalopram I had trouble with mild hallucinations and dissociation episodes which have been a struggle - and he just told me to 'stop overthinking things.'

Im thinking twice now about starting the Sertraline (is that Zoloft?), as i know its just not worth it if it send me over the edge again (I ended up taking an overdose on the first week of citalopram because I was so desperate for the agitation, restlessness and sleepless nights to stop, i could not stop moving for the life of me!) and again my GP didnt even take this in to account.

Thank you for your advice guys, i think im going to try and discuss this with my councellor this week and see if he can suggest the best way around this.