Hi guys, I am a new member and I came here complaining about my depression and other mental illnesses. I guess I was looking for help, support, anything, from anyone. But, my heart is telling me that I do not have the right to reach out to others. My heart is telling me that I am not worth it. So, I quit. I just give up. Something you all don't know about me is that I have been in this same downward spiral for approximately 6 1/2 years! You'd think by now that there'd be some improvement with me, but there hasn't been. To me, this suggests that I am just not capable of helping myself, and that things are too deep to, for lack of a better word, fix. I know that someone day soon, I will be at rest, and all of this chaos/craziness I'm dealing will b completely foreign to me. But, in the meantime, I don't want to continue wasting anyone's time. I'm sorry, and thank you to the two people who responded to my previous post. I appreciate it.