its not truly that I am trying to beg someting else on me its that I know in subncious ways I do sometimes have a tendancy of acting this way. and I know for fact my mother does a lot.

she pretty much any coversation we end up having ends up tying into how it effects her in a good or bad way. Even my own mental health issues some how always get wrapped back up into....comments such as "well I guess I am just a paycheck to you"

a few nights ago I came home telling her I was not feeling good that I had been in tears all day from my depression, and that I wanted to be left alone for a while so i could not re hash the situation and get depressed over it again, instead of listening to my request she starts badgering me about what had happened and why I felt so bad, and tried to re state I did not want to disscuess it.

This lead only to an explosion from her end, telling me how well I guess all I am is some that gives you money

Yes I don't have a job right now, yes I am trying to find one and get back on my feet I live at home with my mother, and she pretty much does take care of everything her self.

but I am beging to see this pattern in both her and myself. And its really painful to watch everything we talk about some how tye back to her and that wither she aims to or not she manpiulates the situtations her favor a lot of the time and helps feed into my issues that I already have already.

its even gotten to points where we both will tell each other we should not do things around each other cause it causes issues. I don't even aim to create arguments with I am talking to her responsibly about, how why this and this she does drags my self confidence down and why I feel depressed half the time.

again she makes it personal and about her. And most of the time in very hurtful ways.

I know am not a doctor and I can't make a diagnosis on someone myself but this seems to me like what is going on. And it feels like the more I try to work on my own issues the more it ends up pushing me and my mom away from each other.

I have no idea what to do any more and I feel utterly hope less I want to just give up!