I have almost the same thing! I was thrown under the bus when I was 8 yrs old, my dad committed suicide and my mother decended into even worse mental illness. I feel as if all those years never happened, like I had depersonalation. I really don't know where I am age wise or how to act or dress. I take cues from other people, but I'll never quite get it and I am 50 yrs old. Good Luck