Well, come to think of it, probably one of the main roots of this whole problem i have wiht myself and my esteem is my age. Here I am, turned 30, and the same old story, the story you all know, story everyone heard 10000000000 times.

Maybe this losing job situation came in the right time to wake me up. Anyway, I'm 30, I'm not exactly rich (going back home to parents hints towards that idea) I'm not married (I keep telling to my GF I don't want to get married while we're in situations similar to this)..

I'm afraid I won't realize myself. I'm afraid of starting any of my ideas, not business related, but passion related. I'm the type of guy who has all these ideas and interests...but I just can't, I can't get myself to execute.

Main reason?

Voice in my head tellin me : why are you wasting your time on that, you're too old and it won't make you any money.

I can't help it, I hear it every time. I had thousands of plans on realizing my little dreams, trying something outside the mundane "work/paying bills/occasional dinner" lifestyle.

I feel like I wasted my time...it's a wretched feeling.