some background-
I'm 20yr male, I had my first manic episode in May. I was depressed for so long that I didn't know I was depressed, depression was my normal state. When it hit me in May it was amazing, I was more social, positive... blah blah blah. I was promoted at work, everyone told me I was a different person (better). I went from 215lbs to 155lbs. Since I wasn't experiencing any negative symptoms (I was more hypomanic) my psych didn't prescribe anything, although he did offer a mood stabilizer. My high lasted about a month, and now I'm in a sort of mixed state, I'm not as manic as I was, and I'm not as depressed as before.
I've been taking melatonin for sleep for about a month, 2 nights ago I was laying in bed and I started hearing voices. It sounded as if I was in a crowded auditorium everyone was talking, I could only make out random words, the only word I remember was 'running', but the voices aren't talking directly to me. I've never been so frightened in my life, it's one of those things where you don't understand it until it happens to you. I stopped taking melatonin, but the voices are still there, they only come in low light situations. I'm really afraid that I may have brought something out and now I can't get rid of it (the voices). I'm petrified to listen to the voices, so I try my hardest to block them out.
For those of you who hear voices how did it start for you? one voice, many voices, internal, external. I hope it's just the melatonin, and that stopping it will make the voices stop.
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