My problems had been building up since childhood and now im 18 and whole day im tensed and crazy and whatever, i cant talk properly anymore, i keep thinking how im going to explain my problems to someone. Whenever im alone i keep talking about how ill explain this and that but when im infront of anyone I dont know what to tell. I dont enjoy anything anymore, probably enjoyed first 10 years of life, then i realised people are looking at me, from then on everything went down, idk what to do now