I took the relationships quiz tonight, having nothing more festive to do on this holiday weekend. As I see myself, I tend to be
[ul][li]insecure (and who wouldn't be after being abruptly dumped after 15 years; but I always was, perhaps because of a father who was often away in the military and died when I was a teenager, or so the statistics on this suggest)[/li]
[li]co-dependent, which especially shows up when a relationship is over, and I feel totally worthless[/li]
[li]and, at this point time, scared of ever getting too emotionally involved again.[/li][/ul]

The quiz says that I've achieved balance! Who would've thunk it? It also says that I can appear cool and dismissive. That part is not so good; I'd rather be warm and welcoming.

One morning this week as I got into my car on a sunny morning, I thought, "I think I'll start dating this year." I quickly amended it the next second to "Maybe." But considering I've been dead set against it for 3 years, that's a bit of progress.