hi everyone.i hope your holidays are going well...well the first of the year is coming and that was the day i set aside for starting get some help for myself.fast run down on myself if you have not seen my other post.i have not seen a doc since 1984 and that was for a check up.i was removed from the public school system at the age of 14 or 15,i have no family who cares or i want get involved with.i do have a girlfrien/wife who i love greatly and have been with for over 16 years.(only++in my life)i have a problem with reading and i am in need of physical and mental help for sure.i have put it all off long enough and have just been given to other reasons to live for.my grandchildren.NOW,,what im scared about.what to say and what not to say ,do i have to tell them every little thing thats bugging me at first.i am scared to death of doctors and i hope i can hold it together long enough to get some help.i have a bad habit of telling people what they want to hear just so they would leave me alone ..meds is another problem,,i hate putting chemicals into my body.i dont drink or do drugs and i hate it...mabie thats whats wrong with me..lol..i do have a little will power left in my body to see this thru,,but i am scared about getting the run around and passed off to someone elce.so,,with all this being said..i feel a little better..talk about getting off track.thats another problem for another day..so any input you have i would love to hear..you no,,the do and donts,say this not that..thanks again everyone and take care...