I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter died one month ago. She was 23. I also have suffered from depression most of my life, as have my three daughters. The pain of losing a child is almost unbearable, as you know. I would like to curl up in my bed and never move, but I realized that there are people counting on me to be here, as I'm sure there are for you. I talk to my daughter and remember her laughter. It keeps me sane. I also have to make sure to take my meds and take care of myself. When she died, people brought alcohol, telling me that I will need it. I quickly realized that the alcohol made everything worse. I miss her so much. I know that ten years from now, I'll still be missing her. But I feel her with me, as long as I keep her memory alive and remember her laughter, she's still a part of my life. I hope this helps you a little, its just my way of coping right now. Please remember that you are not alone in this journey.
Big hugs to you!
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Originally Posted by momofanangel
I lost my son about 5 1/2 years ago. I have always had depression, but it has never been this bad. I think about suicide a lot and I cut my arms. I haven't cut in a long time, I know it's addictive and had to stop. Now I tell someone when I feel like doing it. No one knows the thoughts that go through my head, they would lock me up for sure if they did. Has anyone here lost an adult child? My son was 35 and I can't imagine living the rest of my life without him. Most of the time I just wish I would never wake up in the morning.
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