That was an interesting read MM!

I've definitely always had traits of OCD, but not enough for ever being diagnosed. The reason why is because I resist a lot of it. I'm a counter - I count stairs. Fortunately it's not to such an extent that I would have to walk back down if I missed one - because if I'm talking to someone it's ok to miss a count. I also have to almost-crack an egg 9 times before I can actually crack it - why? Who the eff knows but it's how I roll.

Mostly though I'm a ruminator and an orderly person. I freak out nearly daily because my flat isn't as tidy and clean as I want it to be. The thing that makes it NOT OCD is that despite feeling distressed and unhappy - I refuse to let myself constantly fix everything. If I did, I'd never stop. So I don't. It's sort of a self-punishment now... if I'm behind on X or not happy or something... cleaning isn't allowed. Who knows how this actually works in my brain, but it's how it is.

Um I think I just rambled a bit. That might not have made sense.