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Originally Posted by A Red Panda
That was an interesting read MM!
I've definitely always had traits of OCD, but not enough for ever being diagnosed. The reason why is because I resist a lot of it. I'm a counter - I count stairs. Fortunately it's not to such an extent that I would have to walk back down if I missed one - because if I'm talking to someone it's ok to miss a count. I also have to almost-crack an egg 9 times before I can actually crack it - why? Who the eff knows but it's how I roll.
Mostly though I'm a ruminator and an orderly person. I freak out nearly daily because my flat isn't as tidy and clean as I want it to be. The thing that makes it NOT OCD is that despite feeling distressed and unhappy - I refuse to let myself constantly fix everything. If I did, I'd never stop. So I don't. It's sort of a self-punishment now... if I'm behind on X or not happy or something... cleaning isn't allowed. Who knows how this actually works in my brain, but it's how it is.
Um I think I just rambled a bit. That might not have made sense.
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Makes perfect sense L
Defiance is exactly how I combatted most of my traits. Yes the foot washing got out of hand, but I defied the counting and fixation with even numbers. Both which I can remember indulging in since the age of 8 atleast.
Defiance, control freakenism and back to front punishment is how I combat most of my mental battles actually. I don't feel so alone since you joined you know. I always thought maybe people here don't think I really battle because I'm able to fight effectively in certain situations, or by me posting about how I cope others may think I'm preaching mind over matter and that I'm belittling their experiences....
I'm glad I'm not alone in my methods.
