Hi Anarchy,

Do you have a doc in mind? I mean, is there one that you think you would feel comfortable with? That would help for starters.
Also, like Mellors said, it would be nice if your wife/girlfriend could go with you for moral support. They would even let her go right into the doctors office with you, if you wanted that.
The thing you must do is, be honest. Honesty with your doctor will mean the difference between a good diagnosis or a bad one. If you don't tell him the truth, then he won't know how to correctly give you the answers you need to know.
I don't like taking meds either, but I have to. I would rather take meds than suffer the consequences.
Remember, be honest with the doc. It's only fair for you and him.
Good luck and let us know what you find out. I hope you will find that it isn't as bad as your mind is trying to tell you it is.
Take care,
Linda